Are you attending to what's going on outside of you or what's going on inside of you? If we are always attending to or tuning in to what is going on outside of ourselves or the information coming in, we potentially cut ourselves off from what wants to come through, from the deeper, more wholistic truth within. We drown out the inner knowing or insights by taking in too much information or considering only what is happening outside of ourselves.

I was watching a clip of the comedian John Mulaney and when he said, “Growing up, I always thought that quicksand was going to be a much bigger problem than it turned out to be.” I laughed out loud, and I could totally relate. Let me start by saying that I was a latchkey kid. My mom raised seven kids on her own, and when we got home from school, she was still at work.

What if there was an easier way? What if the harder you try, the harder it gets? I read a quote once from Martha Beck that said, “If whatever you're doing isn't working, don't do it harder.” Often, something doesn't seem to be working or flowing, and my initial impulse is to try harder, and I can slip into thinking more effort is the solution.

Can I trust myself? Can I trust life? Can I trust the inner pull to let go and listen more deeply? When things slowed down for me significantly last year, I realized that there was a layer of fear that was still running beneath the surface of my mind. I feared that if I didn’t hold a tight grip on myself, or stay on top of myself, things would fall apart. I feared that things would go backward if I didn't try harder or do more.